easter blog

i want to blog more but have been preoccupied and blog-shy (still not quite used to blogger).

but it's easter, so why not :P heh

i will post a small piece of wisdom someone told me recently, that a mentor shared with her; i really liked it--

"Sometimes, God takes a long time to do things suddenly"

maybe for a long time, nothing has happened. when things finally do happen, they're really on a roll! to me, it says that even when you don't see any visible signs of god at work, he is. and when things are all set up, all the pieces in place, when the timing is correct-- bam! checkmate.

a reminder to be patient in waiting and prepared for action... and to trust... and to hope too.

happy easter!

i wonder what other wonderful things god has in store for me?

days away from change

i confess that i am often too hard on myself. a splash of perfectionism internalized at an young age, and not quite grown out of it yet. i'm still not sure why that is..., i am just grateful that god loves me for me!

saw this on fb:



if i can give my younger selves some advice (tho not quite as life-transforming as the cusp of becoming a parent :p), i would tell...

my young therapist self: .................... trust yourself more (???)
my post-break-up self: you may not believe me, but one day, without your knowing, the heartache will have gone missing and you won't be missing for anything. you are braver, wiser, and more beautiful than you think. your pain will bring others healing, and it will bring you growth and maturity.
my graduate school self: your expectations of community is too high. school will only teach you maybe about 2% of what you will need to know, the rest you will learn as you go. find people willing to explore pasadena together and GO already!
my first-dating self: be as honest as you can be, it's called vulnerability. face your insecurities. guys are different than girls, accept physical intimacy as a part of relating in a dating relationship and know your boundaries. pray together.
my college self: take more risks, go sailing with the sailing club, get more involved with things outside of church/christian friends, your circle will only get smaller and smaller...
my high school self: don't worry so much about AP classes, learn more about what you are passionate about! let guys ask you fully out, if they are actually interested, to the dances you will attend.
my jr. high self: you are making an incredibly grown-up choice, sometimes God lets you choose and both choices are legit. these friends you will still keep in touch with, even at age 28-- oh, you should bring a plastic bag on your trip to catalina, *everyone* is going to get seasick! heh
my elementary self: remember heng-chuan, it will be such an unique childhood experience. Not every child gets to snorkel on the weekends, catch tadpoles, climb len-pu trees, play with critters, and run around barefooted. you will return one day, and the whole place will have transformed but for the childhood memories...